I was thinking about this the other day as I was rewatching the episode. “Just think of me as a light on the headlands, a beacon, steering you clear of the rocks” is the line that closes out the credits. We hear it every week as Carrie falls further and further down this rabbit hole of her own creation, as he wades farther into the deep end, her head sinking below the surface.
I don’t necessarily see it as Carrie not honoring his memory, but more from the perspective that Carrie doesn’t know how to do this without the unwavering support and love that Quinn offered. She’s struggling, mightily, and that’s definitely an understatement. Like Carrie says this week, she thought she can manage, that she could control the situation, but somehow she ended up very, very far from where she ever thought she’d be.
I thought that was partly about losing the anchor that the CIA offered her. But it was mostly about Quinn, and losing him as an anchor. (And not everyone bounces back from that kind of debilitating loss so quickly. Quinn’s only been gone for like 3-ish months at this point.) So I really do see his loss and her grief coloring everything she does, as Gansa said pre-season.